Time to review my resolutions of 2014.
1. Have a scheduled date night, once a month, with Bryan.
Well we have accomplished this sort of. We do go out, just us, a LOT more than we used to since having Ginny, mainly because my brother lives with us now and is always willing to babysit. We don’t do real dates (dinner/movie) too often, but even just getting out to the grocery store or out to pick up a hot chocolate or something is great.
2. Lose 30lbs.
I didn’t come anywhere near to reaching this goal. In fact, I’m fairly certain that I put on a couple pounds since this time last year. However, the first half of 2014 was extremely difficult for me, as I was trying to climb out of an emotional pit of darkness and it was hard work just trying to be happy. People tend to throw the word depression around, but I’m fairly certain I was in one from roughly January to June. Even when I finally felt GOOD again, it was hard to be thinking about taking care of body the way I should. I don’t feel like I failed this goal though, because I never intended on forcing a 30lb weight loss upon myself. That’s tough work for someone who is a couch potato. This year will be better though, I can feel it already.
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!! And moving saved me. Life in the last apartment was awful. I hated it. I hated myself there. Every memory of Ginny there is tainted because of that awful place. We are leaps and bounds happier in this new place and I thank God for it whenever I can. We have better space, better neighbours, better neighbourhood, and finally we also have furniture. The reason for most of the furniture is sad, but I’m infinitely thankful to my family for giving it to me. We are SO happy here.
4. Get better about that one REALLY important thing.
I accomplished this, too. Still can’t go into detail about it, but I DID IT. It’s hard. It’s always hard, and it’s always going to be hard, but I now know I can do it.
5. Engage Ginny more.
I’ve absolutely done this, but I can still take it up several notches. It’s amazing the difference between the ages of one and two. Suddenly she’s a real kid! And she can colour, and do Play Doh, and crafts…we made felt Christmas ornaments this year. She’s at such a fun age.
I feel good about my resolutions, regardless of keeping them or not. I’m looking forward to making some new ones for 2015.